Goodbye…

How do you know when it is time to go? I’ve been in a difficult place at work for the past year or more. I’ve agonized over whether to go or to stay. I’ve worried about the work, the people, me. I’ve spent countless hours journaling, praying, and talking about the situation to friends and family. I wore myself out trying to figure out what to do. Continue reading “Goodbye…”

Recreation…

In my mind, vacations should be more than diversions. My goal is to use time away from my ordinary life, to restore and reconnect with my best self. Our recent vacation did that beautifully. I left my job, my home, my responsibilities and entered into an alternate reality. A tropical setting, both familiar and unknown, people who have known me all of my days, and a good mix of excitement and boredom combined in a powerful way to reconnect me to myself. Continue reading “Recreation…”

Summer gathering…

We are preparing for an adventure! In just a few days, we will be heading to Florida to spend a week in the sun with my parents, my sister’s family, close friends, and our children (minus Allie – insert sad face). We have lots of plans, there will be a trip to Hogwarts, a road trip down the state to the very tip of the keys, an amazing house, jet skis, day trips, and a sunset cruise to cap it off. Continue reading “Summer gathering…”

A solid place to stand…

Some days it’s hard to find a solid place to stand. Winds of change and trouble blow through my life, shifting and moving even the most reliable of shelters. Relationships grow, change, wither, break. We grow and diminish and hopefully grow again in the esteem of our children. Close friends become acquaintances. Sometimes, families fracture. The landscape of my life is constantly under construction. New things erupt, old structures collapse, and I must navigate this changing landscape. Continue reading “A solid place to stand…”

April road trip…

April in New England can be fickle. About ten days ago, I slid to the edge of the road as I took a turn on ice covered roads on my way to work. Yesterday, I spent the day with the windows down and the sunroof open as I drove toward Western Mass in the golden glow of the April sun. Trees are preparing to burst, but for now, the green canopy of summer is still weeks away. Through fields and quaint towns, I wandered a hundred miles on winding roads. Stone walls, white steeples, and green town commons welcomed me as I drove through town after town. Continue reading “April road trip…”

Making love last…

I thought marriage would bring me happiness. Isn’t that what the movies teach us? “You complete me!” Instead, marriage has been the training ground for an other-ness I didn’t really understand. I wanted to be loved, seen, cared for, and protected. I wanted a partner to do life with. I wanted someone to meet my needs. When I met that dark-eyed boy/man, he felt like home. He seemed to be able to “handle life.” He took care of things, and he wanted to be with me.  Continue reading “Making love last…”