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Another way…
I don’t know if it is cancer or turning fifty, but these things are crystal clear to me now. I would have told you that these things mattered before, but I know them differently in this season of my life.
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Hello 2019…
It’s been easy to identify the challenges of the past year. I feel like I’ve spent too much time rehearsing them. It’s been harder to identify how this year has impacted me, the ways I’ve been reshaped and changed through the challenges.
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Good enough…
Mostly, I veer toward a “go big or go home” philosophy in life. I either take it all on and do it completely, and “perfectly” or I pass. I have never been one to do things, just a little.
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A new rhythm…
There is a part of me that could pull away and isolate myself from all of this. In fact, in the weeks and months since my surgery I have to some extent. I felt like a shell of myself, walking through the daily-ness of my life, but without my heart and soul. I could feel people reaching out to me, but I could not, dared not respond.
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Goal setting…
It seems that I’ve walked over a threshold. On this side, many of the things I’ve spent my life pursuing seem thin and worn. I wonder if the ways I’ve lived my life, spent my energy, and engaged with the world will suit me moving forward.
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Summer art…
A couple of weeks ago, I felt that familiar pull. I created a space, I purchased some supplies, and I began again. I put paint on paper, splashed around a bit, and eventually crumpled it up in frustration.
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A Splash of Inspiration… November 4, 2017
A few years ago, we gave up television. I know exactly when it was. When Robin Williams died, I could not fathom watching the emotional and historical outpouring of communal sadness. I turned the tv off. We liked the sound of silence in our house. We talked more. We read more. We did not even miss the noise. We occasionally turn it on to watch something we’ve recorded or to watch a movie. But mostly, we just enjoy the silence. One thing that I have filled in the corners of the silence with has been reading interesting blogs. I’ve been collecting a reading list of interesting people and perspectives from…
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An adventure…
New England town square with little shops, small businesses, and a white steepled church. Brunch reservations in a perfect French restaurant with jazz music playing in the background beckoned.
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Dinner time…
In my lifetime, I’ve seen things change for the better in the lives of women. I’ve had the privilege of education, autonomy, and some financial means long enough to know that I wouldn’t want to give them up.
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Planning…
What is true on the inside of my life will eventually overflow toward the people around me. If I am filled with insecurity and fear, that will splash on those I hold most dear. If I am overcome with anxiety, it will inhabit my relationships. If my life is overwhelmed by the pace and needs, those closest to me will see the lack.